Live Like We're Dying

May we always find time
to appreciate
the people who love us
and the people we love.

May we never forget
to let them know
that we love them
and make them feel loved.

May we not waste this life
and live it to the fullest
because time is so precious
it can slip us by in a blink of an eye.

I Hope I Still Make You Proud

Last Sunday was Father's Day, as expected, a special video presentation was shown at the end of the church service and as I watched the video, showing father-and-child moments and the beautiful quotes on how great our fathers are, I felt this sadness slowly creeping into my heart. The harsh reality that I could no longer celebrate this day with you, that you are no longer here, always makes me feel like I've lost you all over again.

He Thought, She Thought...

It's true, men are from Mars, women are from Venus. We look at things differently, we digest information differently, we interpret differently, we verbalize differently, we react differently and we cope differently. We are so different in so many ways that most of the time, if not ALL the time, we do not understand each other. Men don't get women, women don't get men.

Comedy

Last night, I was chatting with my best friend, Ana. That isn't really something unusual because we always chat whenever we can. What was strange and unusual about it was the numerous typographical errors we made that night. Apart from misspelled words, there were missing letters or excess letters or a combination of those. And though we repeatedly tried to correct them, they still end up coming out wrong. But never mind the errors, we still understood what the other was trying to say. It was just really funny and ironic at the same time because we were talking about something serious and we are trying to be serious (for a change).

It was still a good day...

Yesterday, I received some alarming news. It concerns me and my health. At first, I felt numb and as it slowly sank in I started to get worried, until I felt sad and scared. I could imagine "Bad Day" playing on the background while I was going through these feelings. Then I stopped myself, otherwise I would start to cry. For the rest of the day I tried to ignore what I was feeling, tried to do something to prevent me from thinking about what I found out. And you know what...? I realized, even with the bad news, it was still a GOOD DAY and I thank GOD for that.

Thank you, Lord...

You Are My Sunshine

You are my sunshine,
my only sunshine
You make me happy
when skies are gray...

This song immediately came to mind when I saw these shoes! I was even discreetly humming the tune while I was trying them on and I can imagine myself skipping gaily if only I was alone. Hahaha. I felt happier just looking at them, so I told myself, "I must have these no matter what!" Ofcourse, myself cannot argue because in matters like this no one dares to get in my way, plus I hold the magic plastic card anyway. By the way, I am NOT (yet) a shopaholic. They are actually a good buy, considering they are comfortable, cute and inexpensive. I'd rather not say "cheap" because it is rude to call someone or something that. Am I being too defensive? Ok, I just wanted to make that clear, not a shopaholic. :-P

Put Me Under A Spell

Sleep, sleep, sleep... when will you grant me my wish of a long and peaceful slumber? I've counted sheeps, forward and backwards. Drank milk though it makes me sick. Tried different "calming" teas, candles and scents. Listened to mellow songs and instrumentals. Took hot and cold showers, they don't really make a difference. If there's anyone out there who could cast a spell... Please, please, please put me under a spell and bring me to dreamland....

Blind, Mute and Deaf

We were in the office, with nothing much to do (in short, we were bored), when suddenly one colleague gave an exasperated sigh. I asked, "Why? What's wrong?" He told me that his PC's speaker finally gave up and died and his last hope for entertainment is gone. Hahaha. We made jokes about what a pitiful state his PC is in, with the screen and speaker problems. Then I remembered the song Bulag, Pipi at Bingi by Philippine folk singer, Freddie Aguilar who is more famously known for the song "Anak". It's been a long time since I heard this song and I did not really know the lyrics so I decided to look for it. In doing so, I came across this blog "Story Behind Your Favorite Song" (http://favesongdiary.blogspot.com/2009/08/bulag-pipi-at-bingi-freddie-aguilar.html), I think it's a nice piece to read, considering the writer has added some personal touch with her stories and an English translation of the song was provided. :)

Imperfectly Whole

Another year over, another year ahead. Last year was a very difficult year, not only because of the economic crisis and career setbacks that seemed to affect almost everyone, but because it has been the most trying year for me, personally. So many things happened, most of them unexpected and painful.

Even if you are no longer here...

Today is my father's 12th death anniversary. He died of emphysema and he was just 47. He was a smoker since young and the doctors said this was the major contributing factor to his ailment. It's been 12 years but his memory is still fresh in my mind.

For months now...

For months now, I have been feeling tired… not that I have been working myself to death… although sometimes I do, but not really lately. Most of the time, I would sit all day in the office, with nothing much to do except trying to find things to do or to pass the time until it’s time to go home. At home… I cook, I clean, I wash… nothing much. There are some things to do, but either they can wait or I am just too lazy to attend to them.

The Rose

For those who have loved and lost,
For those who felt joy and then sadness,
For those who were whole and now broken,
For those who are looking for love and hope.
May it help you move on until you find love anew,
May it give you comfort in your pain and loneliness,
May it give you the strength to become whole again,
May it give you hope and fill your hearts with love...

This Too Shall Pass

When we are going through something very difficult,
When we are faced with trials which seem to be insurmountable,
When we have to travel a long and sad journey,
When we only see road blocks everywhere we turn,
When we have done everything we could and still it's not enough,
When we lose the one we thought we could never live without,
When we are at our lowest, loneliest and weakest,
When we are abandoned, rejected, forsakened and unloved,
When there seems to be no end to our pain and sufferings,
When we feel like life is nothing but a constant struggle,
Let us always remember, this too shall pass...

My Horoscope (16-17 July)

16-JULY-09

DAILY HOROSCOPE

Chances are good that no matter what delays and obstacles you face, Capricorn, you will find a way to squeeze some fun out of the day. Even if it is not until the evening, there is an aura of friendship and cheerfulness that overcomes the weight of the responsibility you are dealing with. In other words, there is serious business that you will be dealing with, but your persistent and practical nature will allow you to take it in stride. There will probably be a surprising conversation with someone you care about today.

Perhaps Love

One of my favorite love songs, with a very special meaning to me...

The lyrics are exactly those that one would feel from the heart, whether they are in-love or broken-hearted or in the process of healing...

My Horoscope (03-July-09)

QUICKIE:
Have you lost some of your idealism? People are essentially good -- remember that.

OVERVIEW:
Sometimes you have to act like a hero -- pushing forward despite despair. Today, you feel certain that things aren't going to work out, but if you persevere, you can break the cycle and succeed!

My Horoscope (28-June-2009)

Daily Horoscope:

Today should bring an end to the political or power struggle you've been dealing with Capricorn. Some of you have faced work related issues that take focus away from your love life, while others have had to deal with love-life issues that are distracting to business. Whichever group you belong to, balance is at hand, and decisions are about to be made that will let you have your cake and eat it too. Matters concerning travel may become important before the end of the day.

The Storm Within

Mark 4:35-41
Jesus Calms the Storm

That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, "Let us go over to the other side." Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?"

He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.

He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!"

My Horoscope (17 June 2009)

QUICKIE:
Looking back into your family history will reveal new insight into your future.

OVERVIEW:
You should get a sign of some kind pointing you backward in time -- maybe pretty far back! You may want to investigate your heritage to see if you can come up with anything interesting.

Hmmm... I wonder what it means... Which part of my heritage shows my future? How far can I possibly go back in time with my "investigation"? Will I even find something there????

My Horoscope (16 June 2009)

QUICKIE:
You have responsibilities, and you take them (but not yourself) seriously.

OVERVIEW:
You've got to choose between your personal life and your career (however you define that term) today, but fortunately it's not a permanent situation. Expect disappointment from someone.